Everyday is a new day

So, the blogging hasn’t gone as well as I would like it to, but in my defense I have been in school for the past year and keeping up with that, work and life during this crazy time has kept me pretty busy.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m working on setting aside more time for myself to do the things I enjoy. (reading, napping and crochet are the top 3 things on my list!) I only have 3 months of school left though and I am determined to get through this and be a straight “A” student for the first time in my life. Not easy, but in the end it will be worth it. Thankfully I have a great bunch of gals in class with me, wonderful friends, my sweet pups and kitties and Logan.

I feel like too many people have spent too much time thinking about all the ways 2020 and 2021 have been awful and that makes me sad. I have a lot to be thankful for and if 2020 and 2021 hadn’t happened, I might not have made the decisions that have led me to this point in my life.

  1. I started school after thinking about it for way too many years
  2. I have started consciously thinking about doing more writing and reading and not just to shame all of my friends on Goodreads 😉
  3. I have realized that letting go is sometimes the best thing to do and my mental health is more important that letting others bully me into doing what they want me to do.
  4. I have also realized that it is not shameful to talk about my anxiety and depression. I talk about not for sympathy, but so that others know they can talk to me. Also so they can be aware that sometimes I struggle and it has nothing to do with anyone but myself.

While maybe not the most extensive list, it is one I cherish because #3 especially has always been hard for me. I still fail at this task sometimes, but at least I am getting better about it.

I would actually love to hear all the things you are thankful for that 2020 and 2021 have brought to your life. Have a great day! Soak up some sunshine and give a dog a kiss!

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And the adventures continue…

So after yesterday mornings Delbert surround sound, I was getting ready for bed and every night before bed I make sure either Logan or I take the dogs out. Last night Logan wasn’t feeling well and went up to bed early so I was on dog duty. As I was getting ready to take the dogs out I start hearing something falling or being shifted. At first I was worried Logan had fallen or something, but then I realized it was coming from the kitchen and that always means the cats are getting into something.

I get up and start heading that way, but no cat in sight. Then I saw that the drawer for the tupperware was all the way open.

DAMMIT REGINALD!

This cat. I love this cat. I also regularly want to strangle him because he loves getting in through this drawer because it sometimes slips open and I keep forgetting to buy child locks for it. So I wander over and am talking to him. The conversation went something like:

Me: Huh. Get yourself stuck silly boy?

Reggie: *glares at me with an obviously you moron look*

Me: That sucks. I know you can get out on your own though. Come on.

Reggie: *more glares followed by him working his way out while I hold the drawer still for him.

He gets out fairly easily and then proceeds to run away because he got caught being stuck and now he is embarrassed.

sorry for the blurry photo, he was angry….

Now I have a cat who is angry because he got caught and I’m going to have to find child locks. If you don’t hear from me in a week just know that I fought Reggie off until the very end….

I have finished reading 2 books and a short story this week and gotten my school work done and my house isn’t a total disaster. Does that make this a successful week? I think so.

I will have separate posts for the books because they are both wonderful and deserve their own post so I can tell you how much I enjoyed them. I think then, I will talk to you about the short story I just read for the first time in many, many years. “The Yellow Wallpaper”

Have you read this short story? If you haven’t or it has been a long time, you should. I found it here after finding the link to it in one of my emails although for the life of me I can’t remember which blog had it tagged for me. Whoever it was, thank you, I needed to read this again. Seems things always come along when they need to and this short story is no different.

I always liked this story because you can make many different arguments for what our main character is going through, but I think it is commonly know that she is suffering from post-partum depression. My heart breaks for her every time I read it because although the time frame is never said, it always seems to be so long ago and they just thought she needed rest and she wasn’t allowed to do things because her husband (he’s a doctor, of course) knows best.

Her struggle is real and while reading the story you can tell when things start to become worse for her and all you want to do is hug her and love her and tell her that is okay and that her husband and sister-in-law suck. They don’t, they obviously love her, but they don’t know how to help and in the end, that was what made her worse.

It’s a story worth pondering and reading even if you have never had post-partum depression. I think it always rings true to me because I have had boughts of depression and I can relate to her on that level.

I put this post out here to let you know that you are not alone, that you are allowed to feel your feelings, but also to remind you to talk to your doctor if you are not feeling okay or like yourself. Life is strange right now (isn’t it always though?) and hiding those feelings away will not help. Reach out to friends and family. Reach out to me. Message me if you need to. I’ll end this with this quote I read on @TheBloggess today:

“Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.” ― Neil Gaiman

You can beat your dragons, but you don’t have to do it by yourself. Be kind, be safe and most of all, be happy.

I might be a mess, and I can handle that. I’m not perfect. Never will be. What hurts most is knowing that people I have gone out of my way for don’t deem me worthy enough to be a part of their lives.

At least I have my dogs. They don’t hate me. Not yet anyway.

Update on posts

So, after a month of just not feeling like myself I have started to get back to a sort of new normal. I am currently reading several series and have found it is much easier to talk about them once I have finished the series instead of doing it one post at a time. So, just know that I am working on finishing a few and then there will be more posts to come. In the meantime I am trying out wordpress.com’s new story blog feature to see how I like that. Let me know what you think!

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Seasoned Southern Sleuths

These grannies might be my heroes. I read most of these books while on vacation visiting Logan’s family because I just couldn’t put them down. That’s what long car rides are for, right? Well, these grannies won my heart very quickly. Lil, Maggie, and the rest of the G Team never fail to make me laugh and cry. This series is small town at it’s best. It shows just how deep some secrets run and just how easy it is to let pride get the best of you.

For the cozy mystery lover, you need to check these out. Kelsey Browning and Nancy Naigle are brilliant in how they are able to write these books together and create a small town world that is so easy for those of us like me to relate to.

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Check out these ladies on Goodreads and at the websites. The G-Team will worm their way into your heart, I just know it.

  1. In for a Penny
  2. Collard Greens and Catfishing
  3. Christmas Cookies And A Confession – A Jenny and Teague romantic adventure novella
  4. Deviled Eggs And Deception
  5. Sweet Tea And Second Chances – A Jenny and Teague romantic adventure novella
  6. Fried Pickles And A Funeral
  7. Wedding Mints And Witnesses

kelseybrowning.com

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Some mornings are easier than others

I have recently been told that I sleep too much. I guess I didn’t realize that not everything likes naps as much as I do. Or maybe I’m just in a bit of a slump/depression and need a change in my routine (or just a steady routine) to get me out of this slump. Thankfully I start a new job next week and that should help to get me up and about and hopefully slowly feeling a little better about myself. A little bit of exercise would probably help also, but baby steps right now.

I’m back in the home territory today but heading home after lunch with family. In the meantime, I woke up around 5a.m., couldn’t sleep and so around 8 decided I needed to get out of my mom’s house with my laptop and find somewhere to get breakfast or something. I came down to Main St. Nutrition in Eureka, KS and got myself a Jack O’Lantern tea. It’s delicious, they don’t care that I have set up shop for a bit and I have managed to sort through about 600 emails (not kidding, I’ve been really back about getting to them).

It’s been a great morning actually and their energizing tea is keeping me from wanting to fall back asleep and it is also keeping me away from the blueberry redbull that is sitting in my mom’s fridge just waiting for me.

I have about another hour before I need to head back to my mom’s house so I am going to work on posting out some blog posts, listening to the Youtube Watch Later list that is slowly growing no matter how hard I try to listen/watch them.

My morning view