Anxiety sucks and so often it also comes hand in hand with depression. It has been an issue I have dealt with for a few years, but have been stubborn enough to always try and deal with all by myself. Here recently I had a night where I realized I couldn’t keep going on like this. I had to go back to the doctor and this time stick it out and find a medicine that works for me. Nothing like meeting a new doctor and having to tell him how dumb you were and you know it needs to change this time around. He was so nice and didn’t chastise me (he totally could have and I would have completely deserved it), but instead went over a few options with me and reminded me it might take some trial and error to find the best fit for me. I start the medicine tonight and I’m not going to lie, I’m nervous. I also know that I have a friend, a cousin and Logan I can talk to when I need to and I need to be better at that. That support system will be what gets me through this and helps me to start to feel like myself again. I miss me before the anxiety and I can’t wait to find that me again.
Exercise is something I also need to get back into the habit of doing regularly. it’s finally nice enough out that taking the dogs out for 20-30 a day will be much easier. No one wants to walk when it is raining and sleeting. Walking gives me a chance to exercise, clear the cobwebs from my mind and also catch up on some audio books I have in my queue.
Here lately Tuesdays have gone from being my stay home and be lazy day to the day when I need to get things done. I’m working on a new routine, but I believe a good long walk early in the morning will be on the agenda before breakfast and maybe a quick stop into one of my favorite places to grab an energizing tea and relax before the crazy begins.
The older I get, the more I seem to have to do and the more exhausting that gets. While I feel like I am slowly finding a new balance, it is taking some time and lots of patience. In the meantime dear readers, I’m off to deliver Avon books and get ready for an auxiliary meeting at the VFW! Until next time!