I have finished reading 2 books and a short story this week and gotten my school work done and my house isn’t a total disaster. Does that make this a successful week? I think so.

I will have separate posts for the books because they are both wonderful and deserve their own post so I can tell you how much I enjoyed them. I think then, I will talk to you about the short story I just read for the first time in many, many years. “The Yellow Wallpaper”

Have you read this short story? If you haven’t or it has been a long time, you should. I found it here after finding the link to it in one of my emails although for the life of me I can’t remember which blog had it tagged for me. Whoever it was, thank you, I needed to read this again. Seems things always come along when they need to and this short story is no different.

I always liked this story because you can make many different arguments for what our main character is going through, but I think it is commonly know that she is suffering from post-partum depression. My heart breaks for her every time I read it because although the time frame is never said, it always seems to be so long ago and they just thought she needed rest and she wasn’t allowed to do things because her husband (he’s a doctor, of course) knows best.

Her struggle is real and while reading the story you can tell when things start to become worse for her and all you want to do is hug her and love her and tell her that is okay and that her husband and sister-in-law suck. They don’t, they obviously love her, but they don’t know how to help and in the end, that was what made her worse.

It’s a story worth pondering and reading even if you have never had post-partum depression. I think it always rings true to me because I have had boughts of depression and I can relate to her on that level.

I put this post out here to let you know that you are not alone, that you are allowed to feel your feelings, but also to remind you to talk to your doctor if you are not feeling okay or like yourself. Life is strange right now (isn’t it always though?) and hiding those feelings away will not help. Reach out to friends and family. Reach out to me. Message me if you need to. I’ll end this with this quote I read on @TheBloggess today:

“Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.” ― Neil Gaiman

You can beat your dragons, but you don’t have to do it by yourself. Be kind, be safe and most of all, be happy.

In the Company of Others

In the Company of Others by Jan Karon

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

As always, I love Tim and Cynthia. One day I hope to be as joyful as Cynthia. This books helps to show that no matter where you are, you can make a difference to those around you and that a little bit of kindness goes a long way.

You have all read my many reviews on these books and know how much I adore this series and especially the characters. Every book I fall a little more in love with Tim and Cynthia and the whole of Mitford. Maybe the small town reminds me of home? Maybe it’s just nice to read something with such a good message (I will never give up my murder/mystery books, but I like to have a variety of things to read).

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My Crochet Hook Helped my Classmate to Pee!

Dark Blue today!

So, today for Day 2 of me wearing a different mask and telling everyone what I am thankful for I’m choosing crochet! My crochet hooks that I always carry with me actually came in handy today in class! I have another classmate name Madeline (I know, right?!? SO COOL!) and when she went to go to the bathroom she noticed that the knot she had tied in her scrub bottoms wouldn’t come undone because it had gotten too tight!

Da Da Da Dum! Madeline to the rescue! I grabbed my bag of hooks, found a small one and in no time at all had the other Madeline untied and able to go to the bathroom!

The next time Logan tells me I don’t need to bring my crochet everywhere, I will tell this story!

What are you thankful for today? Do you have a cute mask on! Leave me a photo comment and show me!

It’s me again Monday

Well hello! Is your Monday going well? I hope so. Mine started off great (well, as great as waking up at 6:30 a.m. can be) and then threw a couple curve balls just to make sure I was awake.

My instructor at school up and quit over the weekend so now we have a fill in who doesn’t do open books tests (this is going to be a game changer) and when we went to pick up our scrubs (we have been waiting almost 3 months for them), they told me my scrub pants aren’t in. All I all, I can’t really complain about Monday though. I hope my old instructor is okay and at least I can still wear leggings to class.

Since Monday threw me a couple of curve balls, I thought I would end this post with something I am thankful for and a picture of me in one of my many masks. I’m haven’t taken a count lately of how many I have and I thought even though masks are uncomfortable, that I should take some time each day to think of something that I am grateful for. And then I can have some fun taking pictures of myself!

Day 1: I am thankful that there is a roof over my head and I have reliable transportation.

They flew…

“We Ride Upon Sticks” by Quan Barry was a book I finished in June and while it is not a book I would pick out for myself, it is a book I am very glad to have read thanks to the Fantastic Strangelings Book Club. Joining this online book club has been great for me and my reading selection. I have found books that I normally would never find and I am enjoying them very much.

Delbert is very confused by teenage girls

Brief no spoiler summary: It’s the 80’s and they are a terrible field hockey team, but this would be the year that everything changes. This would be the year of Emilio, profound realization that their world is so much stranger than they thought and the start of realizing who they are.

This books perfectly sums up the mentality of a group of teenage girls and the 80’s atmosphere in which the book is set is wonderful. While I have never played field hockey and my love of Emilio is not quite as great as these girls, I can relate to these characters because believe it or not, I was once a teenage girl myself. The struggle is real when you are a teenage girl (or female for that matter) and no one quite understands you like your friends and even then, you are all teenagers and no one understands you anyway.

I love that this book is set in Danvers, MA where the accusations that led to the witch trials begin. I love that this atmosphere and the wonderful references to everything 80’s. Overall, this was a great escape and I would really recommend this book be read around October. Check it out. I bet you will love it also!

Manic Monday…

I’m sitting in class this morning waiting for my instructor to begin and all I can think about is how I would love to be napping with the windows open and the dogs lazing about with me. They are the perfect napping buddies. Especially when we are in the nice king size bed!

Seriously though, these guys are the best cuddle bugs. I pretty much never use a heavy blanket anymore and rainy days (especially Mondays) are the best days to lay around and snuggle with them while reading and/or crocheting. I got a new book club book this weekend and am very eager to get started on it so I can tell everyone how awesome it is! What are you doing on this rainy Monday?

Cracked, not broken

So I was reading the next book in the Mitford series last night when all of a sudden I had the sudden urge to read a different book and so I read a whole different book last night. And finished it around 6 a.m., but I know it was just the book I needed last night. The book is “A Celtic Witch” by Debora Geary. She actually has a whole series of books called The Modern Witch series and I own and love them all.

I can’t sit here and tell you these are the best books on the planet, but I can tell you that the characters are complex and wonderful and that I fall in love with them all over again at least once a year when I reread them.

My favorite character is hands down Marcus. Marcus is broken and cranky and gentle and beautiful. I didn’t reread the book where him and his twin cast their last great spell together, but in this one, our grumpy old bachelor has already opened his heart to a new daughter, but now has to learn to open his heart up to love and possibly marriage.

I really connect with Marcus because I know what it is like to want to hide from the world and not see anyone. I understand how hard it is sometimes to open up to someone else because your heart is still broken.

I hadn’t planned until rereading this book until around October (nothing like reading a series about witches around Halloween!), but I was really called to this book last night and since I have such a hard time sleeping it wasn’t hard to knock out this whole book while I watched the sunrise.

I would like to tell you I read this book with dry eyes since I have probably read it 3 or 4 times, but that would be a lie. I first started crying around page 1 (I know, I know) and cried off and on through the whole book.

Summary of plot without spoilers:

Cassidy came for her yearly walkabout and was sent off to Fisher’s Cove to check out their inn. Marcus was just trying to survive the day to day life of parenthood in his sleepy fishing village with a girl child so very different from him.Two lives collide and have to make difficult decisions about what they want.

I know how cheesy it sounds, but trust me, it isn’t. And actually as much as I love this book, please, if you read this series start with the 1st book “A Modern Witch” and work your way through or this book won’t make much sense.

If you can find the series (I’m under the impression it is very difficult to find these days since the author has stopped writing this series and has moved on to other projects), let me know what you think. I bet you will hear more from me about these books in October!

masked in class

weird podcasts and school work!

As I sit in class not doing much of anything since I have already finished all of my schoolwork for the week, I am trying to think of things I can do that don’t require being near actual people, but will keep me out of the house and hopefully on the path to losing weight. My cousin has suggested hiking and I was already thinking some early morning walks need to happen. I know I have pretty much every Friday that needs filled up with something. Walking and then maybe and trip to hide in the library and curl up with a good book may become my Friday plans. While I can obviously read at home, my critters demand attention and there is always something there that will distract me. Being away from home, without my distractions will let me focus on whatever wonderful slice of happiness I am reading.

I am always in search of new things to expand my horizon. What do you do to fill that spare time?

some kind of normal?

I really just wanted to write today because I haven’t written anything in so long. In fact, last week was a little weird at my house (and seems it was for most people). We didn’t do much at all for the 4th, but last week seemed to have us in some kind of funk. Logan and I both stayed home pretty much all week and slept a lot. I am on new anxiety medication so I’m thinking part of it for me might be from that. It just felt like we needed to hide a little more than usual for a week. Hopefully this week we can get back to some sense of normal even though I don’t think anyone knows what normal is anymore.

I didn’t get much read, I didn’t crochet much. I just kind of was……bleh. Messaged a friend of mine who is an author and mentioned to her I was feeling a little off and even she asked if I had been crocheting lately and that’s when I realized how much crochet does for me. Not only does it keep my hands busy, but it also does help to soothe my anxiety. A cuddly dog (or 3) next to me, a familiar show playing on tv (Night Court has been my favorite lately) and a good book pulled up on the computer and I’m pretty much set for 5-6 hours if I don’t have anything else to do.

As we go into this week, I am just going to try and strive to get some kind of routine back in my life. I am usually pretty good at go with the flow, but right now I feel like a little more structure would help me out immensely.

Let me know what you want to accomplish this week. Or leave me a funny picture of you in your mask. As always though: be safe and be kind.

I’ve never done anything quite that bad…

I just want to start this post by saying that without the Fantastic Strangelings Book Club I would have probably never read this book. I am eternally grateful to be a part of that community and have the opportunity to be introduced to all these new authors that I may never have heard of otherwise.

From the start this book reminded me of Clue and Agatha Christie’s “And Then There Were None” and got better from there. The format of the book switches from the past to present to journal entries and does keep you on your toes the whole time.

The last 100 pages of the book had me on the edge of my seat while I kept bouncing back and forth on who the killer was and when it was finally revealed I can admit that I was shocked by it and did not see it coming.

In just 2 sittings and a few hours I finished this book. While it was a quick read, it was only a quick read because of how involved I became in the story and the characters. Nothing like a 20 year old murder to grab you and keep you interested.

If you like thriller/murder stories, this is a good book for you!

how broken am i?

Have you ever been upset and then felt bad because you were upset? Like you know that what you are upset about is stupid and petty and probably easily fixable, but at the moment you are upset it is the worst thing and the tears won’t stop? That’s kind of been my last few months. I talked to the nurse at my doctor today and have made an appointment because despite my best efforts, I think I need a different anxiety medicine. I’m not sure if it’s all the anxiety or the corona virus, or the isolation, or the complete change up in my life these last couple months with school and finding a part time job, but I know something isn’t right.

I’m not sleeping when I should. I’m anxious about things I shouldn’t be and right now I am very tempted to put up a privacy fence (that will upset my neighbor for sure) to keep a dog (that she hates for no reason) that was only supposed to be here a few months, tear up carpet in my house (Logan would kill me) or just crawl into my closet and hide for the next few years. And since I have been taking my medicine, it seems that maybe it is time to change something up and talk to the doctor about other things that I can also do with the medication to make me feel better. I have this awful feeling exercise and healthy foods will be recommended instead of reading my new book club book and eating flaming hot Cheetos.

And when my doctor recommends those things I will listen, and I’m willing to bet I will start to change things because I know that right now that I want to want to see my friends again. I want to drag Logan out to dinner more often just because I can and I know he won’t say no. I want to start to feel like myself again and while I do enjoy staying home some nights, it is time to start getting out again. Thankfully, I am finally old enough to realize that I can’t do it all on my own.

I hope you all are doing alright in this craziness. As always, please feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to and remember, be safe and be kind.