I have finished reading 2 books and a short story this week and gotten my school work done and my house isn’t a total disaster. Does that make this a successful week? I think so.
I will have separate posts for the books because they are both wonderful and deserve their own post so I can tell you how much I enjoyed them. I think then, I will talk to you about the short story I just read for the first time in many, many years. “The Yellow Wallpaper”
Have you read this short story? If you haven’t or it has been a long time, you should. I found it here after finding the link to it in one of my emails although for the life of me I can’t remember which blog had it tagged for me. Whoever it was, thank you, I needed to read this again. Seems things always come along when they need to and this short story is no different.
I always liked this story because you can make many different arguments for what our main character is going through, but I think it is commonly know that she is suffering from post-partum depression. My heart breaks for her every time I read it because although the time frame is never said, it always seems to be so long ago and they just thought she needed rest and she wasn’t allowed to do things because her husband (he’s a doctor, of course) knows best.
Her struggle is real and while reading the story you can tell when things start to become worse for her and all you want to do is hug her and love her and tell her that is okay and that her husband and sister-in-law suck. They don’t, they obviously love her, but they don’t know how to help and in the end, that was what made her worse.
It’s a story worth pondering and reading even if you have never had post-partum depression. I think it always rings true to me because I have had boughts of depression and I can relate to her on that level.
I put this post out here to let you know that you are not alone, that you are allowed to feel your feelings, but also to remind you to talk to your doctor if you are not feeling okay or like yourself. Life is strange right now (isn’t it always though?) and hiding those feelings away will not help. Reach out to friends and family. Reach out to me. Message me if you need to. I’ll end this with this quote I read on @TheBloggess today:
“Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.” ― Neil Gaiman
You can beat your dragons, but you don’t have to do it by yourself. Be kind, be safe and most of all, be happy.